At the airport waiting for my flight back home, I COMING HOME BABY!! =D =D =D
Listening to the tunes on my lappy feeling relatively relieved and of course eager to be home. =)
I did something rather unprofessional earlier on, I kinda regretted it but whats done is done. The next time something similar happens, I know I’ll handle it better. I will.
Anyway, that bloody incompetent asshole came to look for me while I was at the usual coffee hang out and requested to speak to me but I refused to even look at him. Okay I know my behavior is bloody childish but I just couldn’t bring myself to at that point of time. Like I said, I regretted it and I know I will handle it better next time.
Come on lah, you made a big fuss on my last day as your last struggle to keep me here and when you finally realized it was not working, you shoot my boss then shoot me cc-ing the whole world. I’m at the very edge now, I don’t know how much more I can handle from this project.
Of course, there’s a silver lining to every grey cloud. My silver lining, is LF. I’m honestly ever so thankful for him. Only you can see the good in me when I’m at my worst. I hated the EMO kid I was becoming, I hated how I couldn’t stop crying, hated how I could never control my emotions, hated the person I was becoming here. Through my every tear and every outburst, you were always there for me. Thank you. Thank you for always being there for me, for encouraging me and pushing me on. You don’t know how much it means to me, what you said to me today. It doesn’t really matter what the world may think of me, because you can see the best in me even when I’m down and out.
Thank you for being such an amazing bf =)
My mom sms-ed me earlier to see that she’s looking forward to me being home as it has been so quiet without me. Hurhur. See, I knew she missed me and my noisiness!
This trip has really brought out the worst in me, pushed my tolerance to its breaking point and tested my patience. I’ve worked with the nationalities I’ve never worked with before, struggled with their working styles while trying to understand their culture and encountered the worst work attitude ever. I’ve been made a sacrificial goat, saw the true colours of those I once thought were good and realized I had misjudged others. I’ve experience the level of politics I never knew existed, I’ve gave it my best shot, put in my best effort but still failed to get things done.
I learnt that life doesn’t always go the way you want it to but regardless, life still goes on. What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger. I can only hope thats true.
Boarding in approximately 30 mins! =D